May as well try

So, I think I've found something to blog about, me being a fat shite.

I saw some ad on TV for health check test's that you could try on channel4.com so I went and gave them a go and it turns out I'm a fat mess. This coupled with the severe depressed feelings I've had recently about myself have encouraged me to FINALLY try and loose some weight. I've tried before but it's all been a bit half arsed. I never really minded being a big girl. But now that I've had a boyfriend for a year, have started going out more (started going out with more girls) I'm feeling a bit paranoid and uncomfortable. I also think the fact that I've seen Thomas loose that shitload of weight and move to Oz and find a girlfriend and be fricking happy for the past few years has made me feel a wee teeny bit jealous. If he can do it, why can't I? Also, I don't want to be a fat mess when I piss off to uni and find out three months later that Alex has met some stick thin English girl and would rather have her and her giant boobs than me. 

I really think the only way to do this is to eat less shite and move a hell of a lot more. I also think that to try and keep some sort of record of all this so I know how well, or how poorly I'm doing I need to tell everyone some facts about me. At the minute I'm a size 16-20, I know you'll say clothes don't come in that size, but it depends what I'm looking for. And for me, 16-20 is awful. I don't want to be that size anymore. My BMI is 48, which according to the channel 4 website makes me morbidly obese for my height. Reading something that described me as morbid definitely did not make me feel good. However, according to the NHS website, my BMI is only 34.5 which makes me only slightly obese. I do have a feeling that the channel 4 website is slightly wrong as it went on to tell me that my body fat result was only 28 and this was perfect for someone of my height and weight. Anyhoo, this is the start of it all. I'm going to walk into town tomorrow and get myself weighed properly, I'll then weigh myself regularly and hopefully, will be able to write that I've lost some weight each week.